To ∞ and →
Busy daw siya kaya di siya nagpaparamdam sayo…. Alam mo, hindi naman siguro inaabot ng isang oras ang pagtetext ng isang simpleng “Hi, kamusta ka na? Text na lang kita pag di na ko busy ha. Imissyou na.” Kung talagang importante ka sakaniya, ipaparamdam pa din niya sayo yun kahit gaano pa kadami ang ginagawa niya sa buong araw.
Eyes that look only at me. That perfectly sculpted nose. Those lovable lips. That lovely milky skin and a face that’s so curious. Your arrogant tone of voice. Although my friends all think that I’m delusional. But I know your true heart. I’ll still understand, even if you pretend to be a different person. Even if you can fool a ghost, you can’t fool me. Step by step, these nervous footsteps. Full of anticipation. Today, with that large heart, confess your dream now.
(Source: superjessie)
The worst feeling is when someone makes you feel special, then suddenly leaves you hanging & you have to act like you don’t care at all. And you begin to ask yourself what did you do wrong for him to leave you like that. Did he find someone else better than you? Or maybe he got tired of making you feel special? Questions fly around your head everyday. What happened? Will he ever come back? Or maybe he’s just busy and he also thinks about you the way you think about him? If these questions keep on coming, just forget it. If he doesn’t come back in a span of 2 weeks, move on. It’s not like you two are committed right? I know it’s hard. I know it’s mind wrecking to lose someone you’re secretly loving. Life goes on, only people with a clear vision of life and relationship would be able to fulfill their promises. If you find one who can, don’t let them go.
It’s a lot harder than it seems. You talk all day, everyday. You fall asleep on the phone together. You wake up to good morning texts. You think about them every second you’re awake then when you’re asleep, you dream about them. You spend time with them whether its in person or not. They soon become a part of your everyday life and you get used to it. Then all of a sudden, they leave. Most of the time once they’re gone, they’re gone for good. Meaning, no more late night calls, no more cute text messages (actually no texts at all), no more ’i love you’ ‘babe‘ all of that. The first few days you will want to call, text, send them an ask, IM, really do everything just to talk to them and restore what’s “normal”. But, as much as you try, things don’t change. The hardest part is letting go. You check their tumblr and facebook often just to see what they’re doing and also to see if they have someone new. This person that was once your everything is now just a memory. A memory that you replay over and over again in your head. You spend nights reminiscing in the said words, shared laughs, the kisses, all the good things that went on during the time you two were together. Letting go can take weeks, months, even years. Remember that this was just a fragment of time, a memory that will someday fade.
